Sunday, January 27, 2013

Loose Skin is Reality

Someone posted this article about what losing 135 pounds looks like on Facebook today. I'm glad it was posted and that I actually clicked it. It's no secret that I HATE my jiggly, flappy arms...

But until plastic surgery is reality for me, I need to learn to deal with it, somehow. I need to not hate anything about me. That's ridiculously hard, nearly impossible some days. I don't love my melted-candle thighs or my floppy stomach, but they don't bother me as much as those arms do.

But here's the thing: my sister, brother-in-law, and beautiful nephew are coming to visit next weekend. I'm SO looking forward to it. But there's a little nagging voice in the back of my head...there's going to be swimming. I'm going to need to put a bathing suit on. In front of people. Glurp.

I'll do it but it still freaks me out. There's no hiding flappy arms or melty thighs in a bathing suit. And even though I live in Florida, I rarely wear one. There is usually alcohol involved, like when Jen and I went swimming with the sea lions.

I have issues. But we all knew that. So I'm glad I looked at that article. I needed to see that.

On a brighter note, I realized yesterday that I hadn't been to the gym since before I got that sinus infection...before Christmas! Crazy. So I went twice this weekend and my body and mind feel so much better already.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Illness = Tightness?

Has anyone experienced that illness (upper respiratory infection - just a bad cold, really - congestion, slight sore throat, sneezing, coughing) causes band tightness? I am CRAZY tight right now and having a little nausea and abdominal pain every time I eat anything more solid than hummus. I haven't really had a really bad cold in the nearly 3 years since I've had my band so this is new to me.

I managed a few bites of very tender flank steak tonight, and some roasted acorn squash (delicious!) for dinner tonight and now have a stomach ache. I'm not stuck, it's a different feeling and it's sticking around long after dinner.

Maybe I'm taking too many pills (Dayquil/Nyquil plus vitamins) and they're hurting my stomach, but I didn't take any cold meds today until just a few minutes ago.

Maybe I just need a day or two of liquids/mushies to get my stomach back on track. Perhaps I'll pick up some protein powder and do smoothies and soup for a couple of days.