Friday, December 31, 2010

BYOC, The Resurgence

I've missed doing these! Thanks Drazil.

1. Do you make a New Year’s resolution list every year? Do you meet those resolutions, forget about them or never meet them?

I am not a resolution girl. I haven't set one in years.

2. If you could delete all the songs from existence from a certain singer, who would it be?

Rod Stewart. I freaking HATE his voice. The song about whether or not I think he's sexy makes me want to vomit.

3. [Deleted]

Oh goodness. No comment. I just can't answer this one.

4. If it was free AND unlimited – would you choose to have a cook, chauffeur, or masseuse?

Cook! I would rather drive myself and massages are great, but if I had someone to take my picky eating into consideration and cook healthy meals for me, that would be amazing.

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week – in real life and blogland.

It's been a mixed bag.

Christmas was GREAT. As we do every year, we spent the day with a couple of close friends. It was super mellow and fabulous.

Work was awful this week. Insanely busy and I had to be on call today until 2:00. I also had a little discussion with the boss person that left me with a bad taste in my mouth. I had a customer today who was extremely mean and rude and yelled at me for 5 minutes straight. Ugh. I am not feeling good about some stuff there.

I'm very excited about the mini-BOOBs thing in Orlando this weekend.

Oh and I cooked some really good soup. I over seasoned/salted some skinless chicken thighs and grilled them. When we went to eat, I realized how horribly salty they were - I won't be using that marinade again. Instead of tossing them, I chopped them up into a half batch of southwestern veggie soup that I had made a few weeks ago and tossed in the freezer. I cooked it up today. It came out amazing and was a great way to use up chicken that was otherwise ruined.

Happy new year, everyone! Only 57 minutes of 2010 left here on the east coast.

BOOB Roadtrip and Ronnie's Survey

Tomorrow is the day I get to see BOOBs Heidi, Amy, and Maria and I am SO excited! Heidi is coming to pick me up in the afternoon and we're road-trippin' it up to Orlando. (Last chance, Florida people - we're doing one of the Disney parks on Sunday - let me know if you want to meet up with us!)

The only thing that would make it better would be if Stephanie and a few other could join us, but sadly, there wasn't a single weekend in January that all of us could make it. There will be other meet-ups soon though, I'm sure! And we have a super secret special blogger coming to visit in a couple of weeks, but I'll keep that quiet until I'm sure we can make that happen.

Ronnie from Ronnie's Bandumentary posted this survey and I figured I'd answer it...

When were you banded? March 1, 2010

How much weight have you lost? 67 pounds

How often do you weigh yourself? Every morning.

How many fills have you gotten? Three so far.

Do you have a good support system? Yes, I think so. My husband is amazing and supportive, I know I can always talk to my parents, and my fellow BOOBs are incredible!

How hands on is your surgeon in your journey? Not terribly hands on. He's a great guy and I really like him, but he's only in the local office one day a week, which sometimes makes it hard when I need an appointment.

Do you regret telling anyone about your band? If so, who and why? Nope. I'm an open book and I have no regrets. I wasn't planning on telling anyone but family but I'm glad I did. The support has been awesome, and when I wasn't telling, I felt too guilty keeping the info from the very overweight people who were asking me how I was losing the weight. Telling them, "Oh, just eating less and exercising," made me feel bad when I knew that I wasn't able to do it without my band.

What is your favorite band-friendly meal? I eat everything, but when I'm on mushies after a fill, I love lowfat refried beans with guacamole and salsa.

What foods have you given up since surgery? None, nada, zilch. I can eat anything - bread, pasta, pizza, chicken, lettuce...I have never PB'ed and never vomited. Reheated meat sometimes doesn't feel too good, and there are things I just don't like, but I haven't given anything up altogether.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

The Scale

Regarding the fact that my scale showed an 8 pound loss in one day, Stephanie commented, "When I had fluctuations like that I would replace the batteries, because I have always found that to be the problem."

Sadly, she was right. I changed the battery and the scale is back to normal:

That's still a damn fine loss and I will take it! Thanks for the advice, Stephanie.

Monday, December 20, 2010

This is Impossible, Right?

(I am SO glad I have photographic evidence so y'all don't think I'm hallucinating.)

I took a photo for the final day of the challenge yesterday:

A perfectly respectable 216, considering that I was nearly 224 last week.

Then this morning, I stepped on the scale and saw this:

What the [bleep]? 207.2? Where did over 8 pounds go since yesterday? I stepped off and on about 8 times to see if it would change if I put my feet in different places or whatnot. Nope - 207.2 every time.

That's impossible, right? My scale has to be broken.

I wish I had some time to run by the surgeon's office and weigh this morning, but I have to be at work (45 minutes away) at 8:00 AM because I have an appointment this evening.


Sunday, December 19, 2010

Crossing Off the List

When I first got started on this journey, I made a list of 50 reasons I wanted to lose the weight...

42. So my husband has a hot wife.

This is the one that I really wanted to talk about today. Scott and I went to a party Saturday night, the same holiday party for the same group of friends that we've been attending for 10 years. A lot of these people I only see once a year at this party.

Normally, I would have worn jeans and a t-shirt. Like I said to Scott the other day, what was the point in trying to look good, really? At nearly 300 pounds I hated the way I looked and there just didn't seem to be much point.

This year...I did it up. Sexy dress, sexy bra, Spanx, makeup...the whole shebang. I got compliments ALL night.

One woman, the wife of a former co-worker, walked up to me and said, "I hope I'm not being rude by asking, but have you lost, like, a LOT of weight? You look totally different and I didn't recognize you at first."

We had a great conversation about my experience, she was super sweet, and then the best part...Scott walked over to give me a hug, and this woman turned to Scott and sad, "MAN, your wife is HOT. Seriously! She looks amazing." Scott had such pride in his eyes when he looked at me and said, "Oh trust me. I know."

Awwwww. I about melted into a puddle right there on the floor.

Just for fun, here are some pictures from the party. Keep in mind that I was the designated driver and completely sober, but my husband was very, very drunk.

Scott and me with the Grinch:

Me and my best friend Jen:

Buncha drunks:

Silly hats:

It's all over once the ladle of jello shots comes out (and I knitted the jello shot bib):

The Grinch had a rough night:

With the girls:

Scott playing guitar:


Friday, December 17, 2010

Double Digits Too!

Roo from A Brand New Roo posted about how she's in double digits in kilos (because she's in one of those countries where they do that sort of thing) and it made me wonder what I am in kilos...

216.6 pounds = 98.2481073 kilograms

So...woohoo! A milestone I didn't know I was trying to reach, but it's kind of awesome that I did.

To compare, I started out at:

281 pounds = 127.459456 kilograms


I had a great dinner with Shrinking Mommy and her adorable daughter tonight. It was kind-of great to have a meal with someone who eats less than I do.

I Think I know What Caused My Hives

The good news: I think I know what caused my massive allergic reaction.

The bad news: I did it to myself again yesterday and had a bit of a miserable afternoon.

I went into work yesterday feeling great. My splotches were clearing up, I'm not having the bad reactions I feared to the prednisone (so far...knock wood). I showed off my almost completely cleared up arms and neck to my co-workers, who agreed I looked so much better. co-worker Jason and I decided to get Chinese food from the little place next door to the office for lunch.

I was still feeling wary about ordering seafood, even though the seafood allergy test came back negative, so I got beef & broccoli instead.

Less than an hour later, my head started hurting. Then my eyeballs started throbbing. Then I felt like I was going to be sick so I went to the ladies' room. As I was sitting in there with my head spinning, I looked down and my arms were covered in blotches again. I ran back to my desk and took Benadryl right away. Within another hour, my head started feeling better, and within a few hours the blotches started going down again.

I had Chinese food from the same place last week and the week before. I semi-blamed the shrimp the first time and didn't even make the connection the second time since it was more of an ongoing thing at that point.

Sounds like an MSG reaction, no? I will not be eating Chinese food anymore, unless it's from somewhere like Peiwei that I know for a fact they don't use MSG. I have never gotten a headache after Peiwei, PF Changs, or Stir Crazy, so if I need a Chinese food fix, that's where I'll go. (Plus, they post their nutritional info and I can know for sure that I'm getting something healthier. Bonus.)

Down to 216.6 today - another pound gone. That's about 8 pounds since Monday. Damn, I love fills!

On another note, my husband's company holiday party was last night. For the FIRST TIME, my thought at a party like that wasn't, "How do I taste EVERYTHING without looking like a total pig?" My thought process was more like, "Ok, what do I want to taste that will go down and not make me have my first PB in a fancy dress in front of all these people Scott works with?" I had a small piece of mahi mahi, a very thin slice of turkey, a spoonful of steamed veggies, a little salad, and a very small spoonful of pasta. I ate really slowly and carefully and left about half the food on my plate. They had a casino night, so we ended up playing poker for much of the night, which kept me away from the nibbles. When dessert came around I had a piece of pineapple and about 1/4 of a thin slice of chocolate cake. I didn't feel the need to sample everything. It was empowering.

On yet another note, I am having dinner with Shrinking Mommy tonight and I am super excited about it!!!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

New Blogger Alert

I have a brand new blogger to check out. Tiffany at "Don't Worry I'm With The Band" is being banded next Tuesday, much sooner than she expected due to a cancellation with her surgeon, and she needs a little bit of BOOBS love. Please pop over and say hi if you'd be so kind.


Yay for fills! I'm 217.6 today. That's seven pounds down from where I was on Monday morning, just two days ago. I'm sure a lot of that is water weight, since I was on liquids and drinking water/tea/coffee like crazy the last few days, but who cares? This is my lowest adult weight ever and I couldn't be more thrilled today.

This fill feels great. Liquids slide right down, mushies are no problem, and I was able to slowly but easily eat a few fish sticks and baked carrot "fries" for dinner last night and was totally satisfied.

Now I just need to keep it up.

I'm off to take my American Government final exam and then I am freeeeeeee of school for the next 3 weeks. Woohoo!

Monday, December 13, 2010

Steroids & Fill

My hives got way worse over the weekend, after showing some improvement on Friday after the steroid shot. I went back to the doctor this morning and they put me on prednisone. I am terrified about gaining a bunch of weight, which is possible on these meds (the doc said 3-4 pounds over the course of 2 week treatment is normal). Can I just tell you how thrilled I am about this? The choice is itchy and blotchy or puffy and bloated. Freaking fabulous.

Since my band doc is in the same building as my primary and I was supposed to get a fill next week, I went down and asked if they could squeeze me in today. Thank goodness for lovely nurse G, she got me right in. Today was fill #3 and I have 5 cc's in my 10 cc band now. I got a big girl fill of a full cc. Doc was not sure that wasn't too tight, but the water was trickling down slowly and I was able to take my first prednisone tablet with no problem, so I think it's ok. I hope that a couple of days of liquids will get rid of the bit I gained and stop the prednisone gain as well. I have my fingers crossed. I desperately want to be closer to Onederland by my birthday in a couple of weeks, and I have about 22 pounds to go.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

You Know What's Funny?

Because of all the treats in the office lately that I've been avoiding like the plague, I wanted to bring something in that I could enjoy too. Everyone in the office is always talking about wanting to lose weight/eat healthier but I don't think they mean it.

I went to the store and got a few boxes of hot cocoa mix to bring in and share. I got one box of no sugar added, one box of sugar free/fat free, and one box of regular hot cocoa. I also got a bag of marshmallows. Those vultures tore into the regular and demolished it within a couple of hours, I think I was the only one drinking the diet (20 calories per packet and totally hit the spot on a cold day) and the no sugar added was not even opened as of yesterday evening.


Thursday, December 9, 2010

Off Topic and a Bit Gross

I know I said this semester might kill me, but I didn't know how serious I was being.

I am covered, covered, in a nasty rash. I have been to the doctor twice this week. I am on mega-antihistamines (Zyrtec during the day, Benadryl at night) and I had a steroid shot today. The doctor is convinced it is an allergy and I hope she's right. But I have no idea what the heck I could be allergic to. She tested me for a seafood allergy and thank goodness that's not what it is. I don't want to live in a world without shrimp. I'll probably need to go see an allergist.

I am miserable and itchy and my skin hurts. The worst is on my stomach, chest, and back.

This is going to sound so vain, but the worst of it is how ugly it is. I have three holiday parties coming up and for the first time, I want to wear a pretty dress and look nice. Does anyone have any ideas about how to quickly clear up hives? I don't have a bathtub so oatmeal baths are out.

Here are some pictures...

My chest/neck:

My stomach:

One side:

The other side:

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Our Very Own Lap Band Gal is Famous!

Check out this video of Lap Band Gal on the news...she was just fabulous!

And also, if you're not already following her, check out her blog too.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Banding Video

I thought this video of a guy on his banding day was pretty interesting, and brought back a lot of memories!

NWWLS: A day in the life of a patient from Visual Anthem Studios on Vimeo.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Breakfast Idea

This is one of my favorite go-to breakfasts and I wanted to share it.


1 frozen turkey sausage patty (65 calories, 6g protein)
1 wedge Laughing Cow Light spreadable cheese (35 calories, 2g protein)
1/4 cup Eggbeaters, any flavor (30 calories, 6g protein)

Microwave the sausage patty in a very small bowl for 20 seconds to thaw it a bit. Then spread the wedge of cheese thickly on the sausage patty.

Pour the Eggbeaters over the sausage and cheese:

Microwave in 15-30 second increments until egg is set (about 1 minute total):

YUM! A perfect bandster breakfast for 130 calories and 14 grams of protein.

If I'm in a giant hurry and don't have time to sit and eat, I'll toss the whole thing on a flat roll for 100 extra calories and eat it in the car on the way to school/work. It fills me up for longer that way too.

This is so yummy!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010


This semester may actually kill me.

I have 3 papers, a presentation, and 2 final exams due in the next 14 days. On top of it, I think I'm getting a cold. If I don't go completely insane and/or drop dead in the next 2 weeks, I promise that I will blog more often again.

In band news - there is no news. I have pretty much maintained my 60 pound loss and have weighted in somewhere between 219.4 and 221.0 for the last 2 weeks. Not gaining over Thanksgiving and the end of semester crunch time is great in my book, and I have a fill scheduled on December 20, so it will all work out.

I'm off to pass out. Hopefully I will make it all the way to the bed first. I just wanted to let you know I'm still alive and will be back to regularly scheduled programming after December 15.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

I Will Fill. Fill I Will. Not to fill-y is just silly.

Ok, these rhyming titles are getting ridiculous. :-)

It is comments like this one from DiZneDiVa (along with all the other great ones I received on my last post) that are the reason why I blog:

"Get a fill... If your tool's battery was dead, would you still try to use it or replace the battery? You have to have Maintenance to keep your tool working... right?"

Damn. Yes. You are so right. It seems so obvious when you say it that way, but I didn't see it by myself. I liked this one from Robin too:

"The band without sufficient fill is like a tire without enough air. Go get a fill!"

I have some smart Bandster sisters, for sure!

I scheduled a fill for December 20. I'd go sooner, but I have finals on December 11 and December 15 and I can't take time off work/school to do it until the end of the semester since my doc is only in the office on Mondays and I have school on Mondays. Until then, I'll just have to be careful and (ugh) diet. The sucky thing is that I have the holiday party for my surgeon's practice to go to the evening of the 20th and I'll be on liquids...but at least I'll be in a room full of weight loss surgery patients who will understand!

Last night was the monthly support group and we had a guest speaker - Chef Dave Fouts who is a bariatric chef. A lot of people seemed to know who he was, but since I don't really do "bariatric" food and just eat real food, I have never really read WLS cookbooks. Anyway, it was somewhat interesting. He really pushes for "fat free everything" which I really don't believe in. Some fat is healthy and all fat is NOT created equal! There's a world of difference between the fat in an avocado or an olive and the fat in a Twinkie.

I did not buy a copy of any of his books, but they looked decent enough for anyone who really has no idea how or what to cook after surgery. I could pretty much live on refried beans and guacamole or blended southwestern veggie soup or chili when I'm on mushies, so I don't really think I need a cookbook for that, and the rest of the time, I eat normal food.

I'm on vacation for the next few days (through Monday) - yay! Today is my 8 year wedding anniversary, so Scott and I are going out for crab for dinner (band friendly, low calorie, and DELICIOUS!). Tomorrow I have class in the morning, and then am going over to my parents' house so my mom and I can cook for Thanksgiving. I'm psyched about a few days off!

Oh, and I took off the "type a nonsense word" thing for commenting here. That whole thing seems to annoy people (me included) so I removed it so commenting will be easier here from now on.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Filliness Silliness

Ok, so, someone please tell me if I am being ridiculous.

I think I need a fill. I have 4 cc's in my 10 cc band. The reason I think I need a fill is because I want to eat way too much. Last night I had a BIG salad of jerk shrimp, lettuce, avocado, nuts, was delicious but I ate almost the whole thing (a meal sized salad) plus two mahi mahi fritters. I left the restaurant satisfied, but 2 hours later I was "munchy" again, with my stomach rumbling and feeling physically hungry, and looking for food. I ended up having a 100 calorie bag of popcorn and a Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich. Today I had a dentist appointment and I was very late for work because of it, so I ran into Taco Bell and grabbed a bean burrito on my way. I ate THE WHOLE THING, squishy tortilla and all, and get this...was still a little hungry.

Here's the thing...and this is so stupid that I can't believe I'm going to even admit it...I feel like I have "the tool" of the band and I should be able to have that be enough. Like getting another fill is almost a failure. Like...I've gotten this far and I should be able to do it the rest of the way without any more help. Like...I have a screwdriver to work with, why would I need a power drill? I don't need another tool (another fill) because the one I already have should be enough.

Gah. I know this isn't the case and I should just schedule the damn fill and stop being stupid about it. Right?

Thursday, November 18, 2010

What I Eat

Lap Band Gal asked us to post what we eat daily to get some new food ideas.

I always start my day with a cup of coffee from my Keurig, with Splenda and fat free milk (Skim Plus or Smart Balance or Hood Calorie Countdown - whatever is on sale - because they're so much creamier than regular skim milk and have more protein and calcium).


Usually eaten in the car to work. Normally I will have something like:

100 calorie flat roll (Arnold's or Pepperidge Farms) with Eggbeaters, a wedge of Laughing Cow Light cheese, and sometimes some sort of meat - turkey sausage, ham, or a sprinkle of real bacon bits.

Egg muffin cups - I chop leftover cooked veggies (broccoli, asparagus, cauliflower, onions, etc.) and put them in small muffin cups. Top with a sprinkle of cheese and a sprinkle of real bacon bits or chopped ham (optional), and fill the muffin cups to 3/4 full with eggs or Eggbeaters. Bake at 325 until eggs are set - about 20 minutes. I make a big batch and freeze these, and pop 2 in the microwave for breakfast.

Turkey sandwich.

Leftovers from the previous night's dinner.

Cran-bran VitaMuffin top and 2 turkey sausage links.


It varies. Lunch is my biggest meal of the day. Some choices might be:


A salad with chicken or leftover turkey taco meat on it.

Turkey and avocado on a Flatout wrap.

Black bean soup with salsa and a slice of avocado.

Lean Cuisine or Healthy Choice meal.

Tijuana Flats - 1 chicken and black bean taco on a whole wheat wrap, Power Lite (lowfat cheese and sour cream) with onions, lettuce, guacamole, and lots of hot sauce.

Pollo Tropical: Small Tropi-Chop - chicken, 1/2 lettuce and 1/2 brown rice, black beans, grilled onions, and salsa.

Wendy's - Half chicken apple salad (light on the cheese, only 1/2 the nuts and dressing) and a small frozen yogurt at the yogurt place across the street.

Subway - 6 inch turkey on honey oat, bread scooped out, with lettuce, onion, pickles, and a dab of Sweet Onion sauce and light mayo.


Jamaican - jerk chicken or jerk shrimp salad


My dinners are very simple - usually meat or fish on the grill with veggies (broccoli, cauliflower, brussels sprouts, carrots, green beans) on the side.

Meatloaf and baked sweet potatoes.

Chicken & apple sausage with sauerkraut and mustard.

Turkey tacos (I eat mine on a bed of lettuce instead of in taco shells).

Beef or chicken or shrimp stir fry with broccoli and onions.

On Thursday nights I knit, and we usually have our knitting night at our favorite Jamaican restaurant. I'll usually have something like a jerk fish or chicken wrap or something on special - the chef is a REALLY cool guy and he is using us as guinea pigs to figure out what to add to the menu. Tonight he made us mahi mahi fritters. YUM.


I will usually have 1-2 snacks per day. This might be:

Lowfat string cheese.

Small yogurt.

1/2 serving of almonds.

Weight Watchers or Skinny Cow ice cream.

Piece of fruit.

Coffee/nonfat iced latte.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Picture From Social Distortion

As promised, here's a picture of Jen and me from the Social D concert on Saturday.

Attention Florida BOOBS

This one is for the Florida BOOBS (or anyone who feels like traveling somewhere tropical in the dead of winter):

Maria a.k.a. DiZneDiVa and I are thinking about trying to get together in Orlando in January. We're thinking possibly January 8 for a trip to Disney World for a mini-BOOBS gathering. Is anyone interested in trying to get together? I know a lot of the Florida girls have season passes. And frankly, I miss everyone and could use some BOOB time.

Let us know.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Feeling Normal

Last night I dressed up in a cute turquoise and black dress and black Mary Janes. I put on some makeup. My best friend and I went to Miami Beach and we had a great dinner of tapas (small plates) at a fabulous little Cuban restaurant. We sat outside and people-watched. I crossed my legs and felt completely comfortable in the little patio chairs.

We walked around South Beach for an hour, stopping to share a gelato and to look at bracelets and earrings in a cute store. We walked over to the Fillmore theater because we had tickets to a concert. We watched Social Distortion (a great punk band) play, and danced for hours. I didn't need to sit down for most of the show.

I caught a glimpse of myself in the bathroom mirror and thought I looked pretty damn good.

I ran into two women I went to high school with and haven't seen in over a decade. One told me I looked like I'd lost weight and that I looked incredibly happy.

I was happy.

I felt normal.

I didn't feel enormous. I didn't feel embarrassed to run into people I haven't seen in a long time. I didn't need to hide behind giant t-shirts and jeans.

I felt normal.

And I liked it. A lot.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Day on My Plate - 11/9/10

I thought I'd do an illustrated "Day on My Plate" and show you everything I ate for one day.

Breakfast -

Coffee w/ Splenda & 1/2 cup nonfat milk (45 calories)
2 turkey sausage links (75)
Cran-Bran Vitamuffin (100)

Arizona diet green tea in the car on the way to work (0 calories)

Mid-morning cup of coffee w/Splenda and milk (40)

Snack -

1/2 serving chili lime almonds - these are sooo amazing! (85)

Fiber gummies (20)

Lunch - Weight Watchers mini rigatoni (290) mixed with a Green Giant "Just for One" single serving of broccoli and carrots (40)

Snack - 2 oz. Boar's Head low sodium turkey breast (60)

Mid-afternoon cup of coffee w/Splenda and milk - not pictured (40)

Dinner -

4 oz. turkey (150)
1/2 cup mashed potatoes (105)
1/4 cup Stove Top stuffing (80)
1 slice canned cranberry sauce (85)
3 Tbsp. gravy (30)

(Sorry about the blah pic - I guess it was a bit dark. This is a SALAD plate, by the way. From the picture it looks like a crazy amount of food but it's not really.)

Total calories: 1245

And that's what I ate today. I had an unusually high amount of turkey today for some reason. I forgot that Scott was making turkey dinner when I had turkey sausage for breakfast and deli turkey for a snack.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Scenes From an Italian Restaurant

Last night as I was getting ready to leave work, I got a text message from my husband that the power was out so he couldn't make dinner. My first thought was, "Yeah just don't want to cook." ;-) So much for our healthy lean steak and roasted cauliflower.

I called the power company and apparently there was a huge blackout in our area affecting 2200 homes and businesses. It was nearly 9:00 at night and we hadn't had dinner. We decided to grab dinner at one of the only nearby places that were open, an Italian place. I ordered some sauteed lemon chicken and when they brought out my food, the following conversation took place:

Me: Good lord! How many people do they think they're feeding? That piece of chicken could serve four people, easy.
Husband: Um. A year ago you probably would have eaten all of that. Plus salad. And garlic rolls.
Me: Oh. Yeah. I think I vaguely remember that.

It's true. My perception of food and portion sizes have changed considerably. What would have been one meal before is now at least 3. I have leftover chicken, pasta, and I never even touched my soup - that will probably be lunch today. The leftover garlic rolls went right in the garbage.

Yesterday I went to this AWESOME Mexican restaurant with a couple of co-workers for lunch. I had a bowl of chicken & veggie fajita soup. It was awesome - spicy fajita chicken, squash, zucchini, onions, tomatoes, and a few crushed tortilla chips on top. I kept getting asked, are you sure that's all you're having? JUST soup? Well, yeah. It was chilly out and I wanted soup. It's not like I had a cup of broth - it was full of chunky veggies and I was full from that, so why would I get anything else?

Pre-band, unless I was ill I don't think I would have ever considered a bowl of soup a proper lunch.

In other news, I hit 60 pounds down on Thursday. Today I am back up 2 pounds. I'm not freaking out - I'm positive that it's part hormonal (next week is TOM), part sodium (salty soup and chicken yesterday), and part carbs (I almost never eat real pasta anymore, but I had some last night). I managed to completely avoid Halloween candy except for one mini Reeses peanut butter cup and one single Twizzler. Not bad at all. I'm sure I'll drop back down by next week. It's just awfully nice to have finally broken this plateau and be down 4 pounds in 2 weeks, even with the small gain.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Holiday Challenge!

It's time for another challenge! If you'd like more information or to join the challenge, head on over to Kristen's blog, I'm With the Band.

And by the way, this beautiful image was designed by the super-fab Joey. She is so talented!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

In Which I Let You See My Drawers

Inspired by Lap Band Gal's post where she showed us how she makes it happen at work, I thought that I would show you what I keep in my drawer at work too.

Clockwise, from top left:

~ Light vegetable soup - great for lunch in a pinch if I can't get out.
~ Sugar-free gum
~ Carnation Sugar-Free Instant Breakfast - to be mixed with the milk I keep in the fridge
~ Crystal Light packets
~ Fiber chews - citrus flavor (they taste like lemon Starburst and I know I'll grab a couple at some point during the day, and I need my fiber!)
~ Peanut butter protein bars - yummy snack if I get hungry in the 6 hours I have to wait between lunch and dinner
~ (Bottom left, hard to see) Chai Tea new delicious discovery

The following are NOT in my drawers, but I saw them in a store and, in a total "you know you're a bandster when..." moment, they made me gag until I realized that "PB" probably stands for "peanut butter" and know.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Potato Salad

Did y'all know that Weight Watchers makes fresh deli salads now?

The potato salad ROCKS. I read about "resistant starch" which is a type of fiber that happens when you cook and then chill potatoes, among other things, and is supposed to have some health benefits. I read about it on a blog for dietitians. Blah blah blah nutritional mumbo jumbo. The bottom line is that I like potato salad and I never eat it because of how CRAZY high calorie/carb it usually is. I saw this stuff when I was getting regular potato salad in the deli for my husband and had to try it.

The WW stuff is half the calories of the other potato salad because it's made with egg whites and light mayo, and let me tell you - it's tasty. Really tasty. And 130 calories for 2/3 cup. That's a lot of potato salad.

Over the weekend an hour or so before a long walk, I took about 1/2 cup of potato salad, and chopped up 1 hard boiled egg and mixed it in, along with about a teaspoon of mustard. I had some fabulous high protein "southern-style" potato salad for about 160 calories, and it kept me going for HOURS, even after working out.

Anyway, just thought I'd share my new find. It was in the deli section at Publix. They also had a coleslaw and a macaroni salad, but the potato salad was the most appealing to me so that's the one I bought.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Confession Time

I ate two raspberry thumbprint cookies, a bite of a lemon bar, and a chocolate donut hole.

I could blame the food pushers at work, but it was all me. I saw, I drooled, I ate. Raspberry anything is my favorite and once I tasted all of that sugary, buttery deliciousness, I wanted more.

It's over. I have said it out loud. I won't be secretive and give in to any sort of binge. I will have a healthy, light, and high protein lunch and dinner, drink a lot of water, go for a walk on my lunch break, and move on.

Thanks for listening.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Sisterhood Clothes

My first post for the Sisterhood of the Traveling Clothes!

I have up for grabs:

2 pairs of size 7 (I think they're the equivalent to a 26) PETITE length LA Blues Jeans (these were supposed to be for Meli but she shrank so fast that there's no way they'll fit her anymore!)

This shirt (3x):

This shirt (also 3x):

Let me know if anyone wants anything!

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Model Patient?

I got an interesting call from G, the nurse in my surgeon's office, today. She said that the local Palm Beach newspaper wanted to interview a band patient about the experience, and she asked me if I would do it. Um, heck yeah! I would love to share my story. So I'll be doing an interview about my favorite topic and I think that's pretty darn cool. I'm excited! I will share it with all of you if/when it comes out.

Also, this morning I had a new follower, Shanilie, ask: "How do you find the lapband?"

I just look into my stomach, and there it is. Bah dum bum.

I crack me up.

Anyway. Plain and simple, I love my band. I am pretty sure I could not have possibly been this successful without it. Dieting was always miserable before. Now, I don't diet. That is NOT to say that I don't eat healthy...I do.

For example, I made tacos for dinner tonight. Extra lean ground turkey, onions, and spices cooked together, about 1/3 cup over a bed of romaine lettuce with a 100 calorie packet of guacamole, a dab of light sour cream, a tablespoon of shredded cheese, and lots of fresh salsa. Low in calories and carbs and DELICIOUS. Seriously, it was so good that I am looking forward to the leftovers tomorrow. Is it "diet food"? Before band, I would have missed the taco shells, the full-fat sour cream, and loads of cheese. I probably would have eaten 4 tacos and still have been hungry an hour or two later. I was totally satisfied by my small and healthy dinner.

Another example...lunch today. I went to lunch with a couple of co-workers. We went to our local Jamaican joint, and we all ordered the same thing - jerk chicken. They both finished every morsel and practically licked the plates. I ate about half my chicken, part of the small side salad, and about 3 bites of rice and beans. The rest of my meal is in the fridge at work for lunch tomorrow. I enjoyed it tremendously, and the whole thing was around the same number of calories as a Lean Cuisine.

I watch what I eat. I listen to my body. I make good choices. I exercise. It's no different than any other diet...calories in versus calories out...but the difference is that I have this gorgeous, fabulous tool that makes it so I am not walking around hungry all the time.

And I've lost 56 pounds in 7 months and feel better than I have in many years.

So, a bit long winded, but I LOVE my band.

225.2 Today

225.2 is a much nicer number to see since it's been inching down a tiny bit every day for the last 5 days. That's 1.4 pounds since Saturday and about 6 pounds since my Chicago gain. I'll take it. I'm not calling this plateau broken yet, but so far, so good and this morning's number was a new low.

I'm not sure this new fill is perfect but it seems to be kicking in a bit this week. Thank goodness.

Saturday, October 9, 2010


The number 226.6 is starting to make me a little nuts. I have seen it on the scale EVERY day for well over a week. I have a new fill, dammit. I'm eating really well, dammit. I am walking EVERY DAY, dammit. I'm drinking enough water to fill a swimming pool, dammit. Aaaaargh!

I stepped back from the situation and thought about what I'd tell someone else in the same situation:

  • You've lost 54.4 pounds. Sometimes your body needs to catch up.
  • The scale is being stupid. There is no way that on your current calorie level that you are not losing fat. It's probably fluid. Keep on going. Eventually the scale will move.
  • Change something up - eat differently, exercise differently, change something.
So, I am taking a deep breath and following my own advice. I had a different than usual breakfast (I usually have leftovers or chicken salad with crackers, but today I had a mini whole wheat bagel with egg whites and turkey sausage) and I am getting ready to go to the gym for - get this - a bellydancing class before I have to go to school this afternoon.

Fingers crossed that I'll see anything LESS THAN 226.6 tomorrow.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Meralgia Paraesthetica Weirdness

For many, many years I have suffered with Meralgia Paraesthetica - a painful, burning, tingling, numbness thing in my left outer thigh. It started out the size of a quarter and got worse until it went from my knee almost to the top of my thigh. I could ignore it pretty well as long as I was sitting or laying down, or even steadily walking. However, walking slowly (such as browsing in a store) or standing still were horrible. It would start to tingle, burn, throb, feel like I was being stung by bees, and the only way to stop it was to sit down for awhile.

Of course...other than the one doctor who said it was all in my head and prescribed antidepressants (which I refused to take because I knew it was physical), every doctor I've been to for it, and had tests from MRI's to physical therapy have all said the same thing:

It's because you're fat. Lose weight.

I have noticed that I haven't had that pain in awhile. I had no problems in Chicago with the 5K, even with all of the standing around before it. Standing around the airport didn't bother me. Shopping and playing tourist for hours with Lap Band Gal didn't bother me in the least. My thigh was numb, but not painful.

And now...

Over the last few days, the feeling in my thigh is coming back. I seem to have sensation in my skin where I haven't had any in years. It feels so strange. I feel like I have bugs crawling on me as the feeling comes back and the nerves start to fire again. It's not exactly comfortable but not painful either. I hope that it goes back to normal and I regain full sensation, but I suppose only time will tell that.

It sure is encouraging me to bump up the efforts and get some more weight off quick to see if that helps. I went on a short (1/2 mile) walk on my lunch break today, I'm getting up early to work out tomorrow, and I have my check in with the doc for a weigh in before work in the morning. I can't wait to see how I've done since this fill. MY scale says 5-6 pounds, but that thing is screwy so I want to weigh on the good scale. I'll let you know how it goes.

Oh, and for everyone who was praising my self control in my last post - thank you. It's not so much the self control as it is me being stubborn as hell at this point about not wanting to eat the crap food at work and give "them" the satisfaction. I did have cake at my best friend's nephew's birthday party this weekend. And a little bit of ziti. And a nibble of spinach pie. soda. Yep, after all this time soda free, I had a diet Sprite and it was deeee-licious. I won't make it a habit, but I surely liked it. I didn't go overboard by any means, but I enjoyed myself, ate sensibly, didn't go back for seconds, and felt good about my choices. That's what it's all about, right?

Friday, October 1, 2010

Food Pushers

Why is it ok for the food pushers at work to be so annoying? In what universe is it funny to literally wave a cupcake in someone's face while she is on the phone with a customer after she has specifically asked you to not talk to her about junk food and she has already said she does not want any and doesn't want to hear about it?


It would be one thing if this really was a once-in-awhile treat, but there is crap food at my job nearly every day. There was pumpkin cake yesterday. I avoided it. I was told several times that I don't need to be such a stickler for my diet and I should loosen up every once in awhile.

I DO loosen up once in awhile. But not every day. I've come too far to screw up now.

If I were a drug addict would it be funny to wave crack in my face?

This was my day. I got in to work and went in to the kitchen to put my lunch in the fridge. There were bagels. There are ALWAYS bagels on Fridays.

A few hours later was when the cupcake thing happened.

This note was also on the freezer door.

All of this made for a very grumpy me.

I didn't give in though. I stuck to this:

And a couple of these:

I don't expect anyone to tiptoe around me and they can eat all of the crappy sugar-laden junk that they want to and balloon to 500 pounds. I don't care. Just stop waving the stuff in my face and being such assholes!

Wednesday, September 29, 2010


This was my delicious dessert tonight - 2 fiber gummies and 3 vitamin gummies. Yum.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Fill #2

I had my second fill today. The doc pulled out the 3 cc's that he gave me last time and it was all still there. He added 2 cc's and I couldn't swallow water - it was pooling in my throat - scary! So he took one cc out and the water went gurgling down. Will this be my sweet spot? Who knows. The last fill kept me going for months.

I knew it was REALLY REALLY time for a fill this weekend when I was able to eat, with no problem, deep dish pizza, an entire Chicago hot dog (including bun) and more. Not all at once, of course.

I was up 2.8 pounds since my last visit. I'm sure that part of that was normal travel bloat, but it was definitely time for a fill.

I'm on clear liquids for the rest of the day, full liquids tomorrow, mushies on Wednesday, and back to normal on Thursday. I am SO HUNGRY right now and not sure how I will make it through the rest of the day on clears. But I will.

I had my 6 month blood work last week and saw the results today - cholesterol is 158, glucose is 77, everything is perfect except for vitamin D which is STILL a little low, so I'm back on the vitamin D prescription. My B12 was also on the low side of normal, so I'm going to start sublingual B12. That's about it!


For anyone thinking about going to the next BOOBS NOT do it. You will be exhausted, hung over, sore, nauseated, up three pounds, and feel like you need a week to recover.

However, you will also be loved, hugged, bought drinks, share amazing food, laugh until your port hurts, learn all kinds of interesting new things about people you thought you knew pretty well (it's amazing what comes out when there is practically an infinite supply of wine), rub lots of port babies, and make some awesome new friends.

Come to think of it, the whole thing was probably worth it. Yeah, I'd say it was worth it. Yep.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Inquiring BOOBS Want to Know

This was on the BOOBS blog today...

Hi all the boobie girls! Someone much more organized than I am thought it would be fun to know more about you, and she enlisted me to think of some crazy questions…so…this is sort of a Gillyified version of Drazil’s BYOC. Knock yourselves out.

1) You’re trapped on a desert island and you can bring only 3 of your favourite foods along. What do you bring?

Can I be trapped on a DESSERT island instead? Heh. I crack myself up. If I could bring anything I want and assuming that heating/refrigeration/chef service is included and calories don't count:

- Thai Panang curry with chicken, broccoli, and steamed rice
- Skyline chili 3-way (chili and LOADS of cheese over spaghetti)
- Blackberry cobbler with vanilla bean ice cream

2) If you could meet any 3 people, living or dead, who would they be and why?

- Jerry Garcia, because I've been a Deadhead for as long as I can remember, and I'd love to sit down and talk to him.
- My father's father, because it makes me sad that I never met one of my grandparents.
- Thomas Jefferson, because I'd love to get his take on what's going on in the world today.

3) What is your stripper name? (take the name of your first pet and the name of the street you grew up on)

Stormy Thirty-third. How boring! Can I use current pet/street instead? If so, then it's Liberty Fashion.

4) How old were you when you lost your virginity? Alternative question if you don’t want to answer this: What is your LEAST favourite part of your bod since losing weight? Your MOST favourite since losing weight?

I was as pure as the driven snow until my wedding night. (Come on, my parents read this!)

My favorite part - cheekbones and collarbones
Least favorite - arms...yuck

5) Do you believe in ghosts or evil spirits? Would you be willing to spend a night alone in a house that is supposedly haunted?

Um. Yeah, sure.

6) What is your natural hair colour? If you dye it something completely different from what your momma gave ya, how come?

Dark blond. I used to highlight it all the time but my hair is REALLY long, so it took forever and was expensive and was drying my hair, so it's au natural now.

7) Boxers or briefs? Alternatively…bikinis or granny panties?

Briefs, and high-cut cotton ones.

8) If you could only watch one movie for the rest of your life, what would it be and why? (Trilogies do not count as one movie, cheaterpantses!)

Shrek! It makes me laugh and cry every time I watch it.

9) What is your guilty pleasure (feel free to go straight to the gutter with this one if the spirit moves you!)

Reality TV. My husband thinks it's ridiculous but he's wrong. :-) I have to think all day long. I like to turn my brain off at the end of a long day. (Speaking's Biggest Loser time!)

10) How many pounds gone forever are you celebrating?? :)

54...and holding.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Nervous About Chicago

  • What if I'm the only one who doesn't really know anyone?
  • What if I show up and no one knows who I am?
  • What if I don't like everyone?
  • What if everyone doesn't like me?
  • What if my dress isn't right?
  • What if my clothes are wrong for the weather?
  • What if I can't keep up?
  • What if I get lost?
  • What if I can't find the hotel?
  • What if I can't sleep?
  • What if I snore and my roommate hates me?
I know that the majority of this is not likely, but my brain is working overtime on this. Am I the only one?

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Birthday NSV

Today is my husband Scott's birthday. We went to his favorite steakhouse for dinner. When we got there, the place was jam packed and the only table open was a booth by the bar. I was tempted to wait because the last time we were seated in the bar I was so uncomfortable jammed in the miniature booth. This place was built in the 1940's and the booths are tiny.

Scott said the booth was fine before I could object. We were seated at the same booth as we were a couple of years ago. There were a good 6 inches between me and the table. Yay. :-)

I ordered the smallest thing on the menu (a 6 oz. filet), barely touched my potatoes, nibbled at the salad, didn't have any bread, just had a few bites of a shared piece of chocolate cake, and I STILL left quite full. I love my band!!!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

A Good Day

I was the featured blogger on the BOOBS blog today. What a lovely surprise! It totally made my day. Only ten days until Chicago and I am nervous but crazy excited.

A fellow WLS patient from my doctor's office emailed me last night to say that she had a bunch of NICE clothes for me in sizes 14-16, so I'm hoping there's a dress in there for Saturday night's fancy dinner. If not, I'll be going shopping this weekend.

The scale isn't moving. I've been stuck right around 54 pounds down for a couple of weeks. It is annoying, but I know I have a fill scheduled for the day after I get back from my trip so I'm trying to be mellow about the whole thing and just go with maintaining for now. My sister and brother-in-law were in town for a few days and we did a LOT of eating so I am ok with maintaining right now. I made mostly good choices, but I am not denying the existence of pad thai, sushi, sweet potato fries, tostones, jerk meatballs, a (shared) coconut cupcake, guacamole and chips, and the amazing chocolate cake that my mom got for my sister's, dad's, and husband's birthdays - which all fall within a couple of weeks of each other. Come to think of it, that's pretty darn good that I maintained last weekend!

I wore the pink polo shirt today that the lovely Kristin from Catchy Title Here sent me. I got several compliments, including one co-worker who remarked that he liked the preppy look on me and if he wasn't totally in love with his wife that he would be hitting on me. Heh.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Thousand Word Thursday 9/9/10

A decoration in your home that is very meaningful to you - a family heirloom, a gift from your BFF, etc. Show (with a pic) and tell (describe it)...

This is by far my favorite decoration in my home. My sister put it together for me as a gift. It is the photos of my sister (left), mother (center), and me (right) on our wedding days. It is hanging in my living room. I LOVE this and every time I look at it, I smile.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Thousand Word Thursday (a day late)

The lovely Amy from Babbles of a Bandster wrote:

Let's celebrate our own beauty and how wonderful we all look with a photo of your favorite feature.

My hands make pretty things. They also touch my favorite people and animals, cook, type, and play. I find them quite useful. I have nice fingernails too.