Ok, so, someone please tell me if I am being ridiculous.
I think I need a fill. I have 4 cc's in my 10 cc band. The reason I think I need a fill is because I want to eat way too much. Last night I had a BIG salad of jerk shrimp, lettuce, avocado, nuts, plantains...it was delicious but I ate almost the whole thing (a meal sized salad) plus two mahi mahi fritters. I left the restaurant satisfied, but 2 hours later I was "munchy" again, with my stomach rumbling and feeling physically hungry, and looking for food. I ended up having a 100 calorie bag of popcorn and a Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich. Today I had a dentist appointment and I was very late for work because of it, so I ran into Taco Bell and grabbed a bean burrito on my way. I ate THE WHOLE THING, squishy tortilla and all, and get this...was still a little hungry.
Here's the thing...and this is so stupid that I can't believe I'm going to even admit it...I feel like I have "the tool" of the band and I should be able to have that be enough. Like getting another fill is almost a failure. Like...I've gotten this far and I should be able to do it the rest of the way without any more help. Like...I have a screwdriver to work with, why would I need a power drill? I don't need another tool (another fill) because the one I already have should be enough.
Gah. I know this isn't the case and I should just schedule the damn fill and stop being stupid about it. Right?