Fill Day

I got a BIG GIRL FILL today. Two whole cc’s. I really needed it too – I was up nearly 4 pounds since my last weigh-in on my doctor’s scale a couple of weeks ago. That was partly from vacation, but mostly because I have just been so HUNGRY and can and want to eat everything. The “chicken and lettuce, bitch” diet has simply NOT worked out for me lately.

Dr. Wizman had a med student with him and asked if I minded if she observed. I said I didn't mind at all. He started with his usual questions...what am I eating (everything!), can I eat bread/pasta/chicken (oh, yes please!), am I hungry more than every 4 hours (you have no idea). Then it was on to the usual procedure...lean back, shirt up, left arm overhead, lift legs, and in goes the needle. I told the med student that even though the needle is humongous, it doesn't hurt at all. He then sat me up with the needle sticking out of my belly a la Pulp Fiction and had me sip some water. What was really cool was that he was describing the whole thing to the med student...how he pulls the fluid out to check the level, how he goes by feel to see when the fluid level feels right, and how to find the port on the first stick every time.

Then came the fun part. He said he would show us what real restriction felt and looked like, if I was ok with it. I said sure, and he shot me up with 5 more cc's of fluid and told me to take a sip of water. Oh my goodness, I felt like I would drown when the water started gurgling back up into my throat. How odd! But admittedly, sort of cool too. I just know I never want to experience that for real when I am at home and trying to drink water. He pulled out a little but of fluid at a time until I could feel the water going down my throat. I finished my bottle of water and headed off to work.

I'm on liquids today so I can't tell if I'm in a good place with restriction or not, but everything from water to chai latte to a drinkable yogurt are going down slowly, but just fine. I could really feel it with the yogurt - I had to take my time, but it was no problem getting it all down.

I was 215.4 this morning. I hope this will be the fill that gets me to Onederland!